Sunday, February 28, 2016
Lord, Help Me to See You More Clearly
My Morning Prayer: Good morning Lord. Thank You for another day. I'm glad to know that had this day not showed up, I would have been alright with You. But I am glad that it showed up.
Lord, yesterday at lunch, I walked into the fast food joint sort of tired from a busy morning and pretty hungry from working off breakfast. I know that You saw me do what I and most people normally do; I panned around the restaurant to see what it looked like; checking out the seating availability, and with the world like it is, doing a quick security scan as well. Sometimes I see people that I know, and I'll give a quick "heeeey, how you doing?!". But I didn't see anyone I knew yesterday. So I proceeded to the line, ordered my food and sat at my usual window seat. Then while I was eating and checking facebook (of course) on my ipad, I glanced back around the restaurant and noticed a man and a woman sitting at a table on the other side, and realized it was someone I know through work. It dawned on me that they were already sitting at the table when I first walked in and did my surveillance scan. Father, in reviewing the video tape in my head, I then remembered that when I scanned that part of the restaurant I looked right at them and they at me. The video was a little fuzzy there, so I don't remember if they waved at me, but I know I certainly didn't wave at them. I realized that I had looked at them but I didn't see them.
Well of course Lord I was then thinking about what they may have been thinking about me. I was sure they were thinking 'wow, he looked right at us and didn't even speak', or 'I waved at him and he looked right at me and didn't even wave'. Well Lord, I thought about it for a moment, but went on back to eating my meal. The thought did linger on how sometimes my mind can be so preoccupied that I can look right at someone or something and not really even seem them. Not a big deal I suppose, but I hope it doesn't happen that often.
Lord, this is my point in saying all of this to You in my prayer. Though I didn't get or take the chance to apologize for not seeing those folks, I do want to acknowledge that I allow my mind to get so tangled up with thoughts and to-do's that I can look right at You and never see You. Sometimes good things will happen or problems will work out and I look right at it and never thank You for the blessing. Sometimes I can be reading Your word, and my eyes are scanning the pages but I never see the truth You are trying to reveal. Sometimes I can be in church and going through the motions of worship but never really see Your glory.
I don't want to miss You Lord. I don't want to be like the keeper of the inn in Bethlehem who saw the baby but didn't see Jesus. Or the religious leaders of that time who saw a trouble-maker and tradition-breaker, but didn't see Jesus. Or the Roman guards who saw a convicted criminal to hang on a cross, but didn't see Jesus. Father, if I'm looking, I want to be seeing. So I pray that You will help me not miss You in the every day details of my life. Before I got saved, I spent 27 years looking right past You, and I don't want to waste another look.
Lord, You're too awesome to miss. I love You. In Jesus name. Amen.