Saturday, July 11, 2015
Close to My Father
My dad and I are close. That closeness developed over years of spending a lot of time together. He often tells me the story of when I was born, like I never have heard it before (I don't mind though; I love hearing it). He said that as soon as I was born he looked at me and told my momma that he was going to take me everywhere he went. My momma said "You know you can't take him everywhere." To which he replied "Oh yes I can!". And I tell you what, it might not have been quite everywhere but it was close.
From my earliest childhood memories I was with him all over the place. Riding in his truck; riding on his tractor; walking across the farm; walking through the woods, cutting wood, loading hogs, fixing the fence, cutting grass, picking cucumbers, getting off tobacco, cleaning up at the car-wash he ran for 40 years, ....(whew...had to catch my breath). Oh yeah, and...going to church. We did a lot together and we became very close. I have always had the utmost respect for my dad, so I never "kicked it" with him, or looked at him as my buddy or best friend, yet...we are close.
Buuuuut, I hit a streak in my teenage and early adult years where I was doing "my own thang". By the time I graduated from high school, I already had one degree from Party Central, and then I went to ECU and started working on my PHD (Partying, Hanging, and Drinking). I went home every weekend to work with my dad on the farm. And there were many a Saturday mornings that, as close as we were, I was doing everything I could to keep my distance. Even though I was rebelling against him in a lot of ways, I still respected him, so I did the best I could to hide from him the person I had become. I didn't talk to him as much. Wouldn't look directly at him. Sometimes I tried to avoid him altogether. I now realize that my guilt and shame over doing my own thang had put distance between me and my dad.
Maybe you can relate. Maybe your ways have pushed your loved ones away. Could be your father or mother. Maybe your spouse or children. In whatever relationship that might be, if you're feeling what I'm saying, then just take that distance and multiply it by a million. And that just might get you close to the distance that doing your own thang has put between you and your Heavenly Father.
Isaiah 59:2 says "But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear." We all need God, and we can know of God, and hopefully our hearts desire God, but because of what we have done we are too far from God. That is without Christ. Thank God for Jesus because though our sins have burned the bridge between us and the Father, He has taken the wood from the cross and built it back. So through His forgiveness our guilt and shame is taken away, and we can be reconciled to the Father.
Now I am once again close to both of my fathers, and I hope you are too.