Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Make Daddy Proud!
I try to be careful with how I use the word pride, or say that I am proud of something. The bible says right much about pride, and it's not good. I realize that pride is like the seed of a weed; it doesn't take much to grow, and once it does it's hard to get rid of. However...I can't find a better word to describe how I feel about my daughters, so in talking about them for a moment, I will carefully use that word. So...here goes.
OH MY GOODNESS I AM SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTERS! (was that subtle enough?). But yes I am grateful for them, thankful to God that He has blessed me with such sweet girls. They are both so wonderful in their own ways and it has been a blessing to me to watch them grow and learn and develop as little ladies. And the best of all is that they both love their daddy and their Heavenly Father.
The feeling I get when I look at them, which for now I will call pride, is not because I see them as out-doing other people's kids, or I feel a sense of "better than you" coming over me. But I think I feel that sense of pride when I see them doing whatever it is they are doing, and I can see a piece of me in them. Whether it be a skill I have taught them, some knowledge I have bestowed, a mannerism they have picked up, or something about them that looks like me. It's like I can see and feel a part of me living in and through them. Like I can see my oldest daughter Ariel singing in church with such beauty and passion, and I know that she and I share that love of music. Or I see Breanna reading a book or hear her talk about what she has learned in school, and I know that she and I share a thirst for knowledge. So the greatest compliment from them is to live their lives carrying a little part of me.
We should know that is exactly how God feels. Our Heavenly Father wants to watch us throughout our daily lives and to be able to see some of Him in how we talk, or what we say, or the things we do. Nothing glorifies God more than for Him to look at us and see Himself. And conversely, nothing breaks His heart more than to see us and notice nothing that resembles Him. To have created us, and protected us, and provided for us, then forgave us, and sent His Son to save us, and yet to see us showing nothing of Him in how we live.
The closer to God I get, the more awesome I realize that He is. And because of that, my life's desire is to not just know what He has taught me, but to show what He has taught me. Even if at the end of my life no one really knows who I am, and the only stone my name is ever written in is my tomb stone, I won't mind. Just as long as I make Daddy proud!